neamz’s Blog

Is it just me or has the weather been really fukt this year? I walked out the house today to find it a sunny and blazing hot day, during work it started pouring rain making the humidity fukin unbearable. I went out for a cigarette bout 15 mins ago, i could see my breath and my nips could cut glass. Now i’m just waiting for it to start fwakin snowing so i can start boarding already!!

Not much on poker, put in about 1.5k hands playing 1 table of Rush Poker and am up a buy-in or so.  My BR is way too small to be multi-tabling so i decided to just play 1 table of 25nl instead of jumping down to 10nl (after winning 1 buy-in i close the table and start a new one gawwwdddd i’m fukin broke and cheap). I’m suprised i’m still optimistic about grinding tho because of the turrible start i had, but i understand the variance this game brings,  so all i can do is wait for my investments to flourish ^_^. I want to put in about 10k hands by the end of the week but playing 1 table at a time could prove difficult.

Did triceps yesterday and my shits not even sore today and i thought i went pretty hard…. bummer but i went extra hard on back exercises today so should balance out. Currently watching tv show about world championship leggo builders. Two words. Bored Clowns. contestants are three 45+ year olds and a 16 year old kid. 16 year old laces all three of the old heads lulz. BTW if peepz didn’t know Denmark = leggo capital. quote of the day ‘fear is excitement without breath’. I LIVE FOR THIS SHIT!

As charles barkley says, ‘thats just turrible’. Put in ~5k hands with a result of -293.48. These are clearly not the results i had in mind for my first day back to grind seriously. I think 70ish% hands were pretty standard (shit like i flop top set against same villain 2 hands in a row and he rivers quadzilla 7s with bottom set TWICE) other 30% was just pretty much mad steaming. After losing big hands I always raise with whatever hands i have on my other tables which tends to end in me shoving with a PSB on river as a bluff and getting called down. This is a major leak that i have to plug if i ever even think of making it through the week. With that huge hit i gotta start thinking of moving down to nl10, which is funny because when i first started playing cash i never showed 1 cent of profit from that fukin clown ass stake.

Didn’t really do much else today, worked on my biceps, smoked a jay, read a bit of a book called The Alchemist which  is a pretty deep book considering its only like 100 pages. My new mantra for today is ‘ a stronger opponent or competition, is just another form of a weaker self’. This can apply to actual people or the problem i had with tiltage after losing sessions. Thas bout it for today, gunna squeeze in another session b4 i pass out…. fuck maybe thats why i have huge losing sessions, i just never quit till i get 6-feet deep buried or even….. FUCK IT i’m a G.

Sup guys been a while. Took some time off from the poker scene a bit just to get my mind right. I cashed out most of my winnings but kind of regretting it now cause i have to play 25nl but no complaints. I have no idea what happens to me that makes me lose the motivation and discipline to keep grinding out hands. I feel like i’ve lost the ambition to attempt to play for a living. This has happened to me a few times within the last couple year, but i always come crawling back. I guess the partying/working has been keeping me busy over the summer. Who would want to stay in the house with no a/c on a 40 degree day grinding hands when i can be on the beach, or on the patio hammering a couple dranks back. I plan on grinding out all this month so i can get back to taking shots at 50nl. My motto will be “Fold your way to victory, and play your heaters”. All it means pretty much is to stop spewing my money and wait for good spots, because they will eventually come.

Am watching some show saying that one way to stop the decrease brain muscles is to make frequent diary entries, no homo, so you are capable of regurgitating certain moments/thoughts/feelings throughout the day and reflect on them. I’m guessing that this is more of a memory exercise but every little thing helps seeing that this spliff is probably destroying most of the cells in my brain lulz. Bottom line i want to start making these entries consistently. (would help too if i can get some comments ^^) gg no re i’m out.

Sup sup, back again for anotha one! Today was….. an okay, terrible, . The only good part of my day was getting back a quiz from last week, in which I got a 65%, in class today and feeling okay about the mark seeing that I only studied about 60% of the content. I was both tired and/or sobering up when I was studying so I definately can’t claim to have even come close to retaining 100% of the content and material I read, let alone regurgitate parts of it on command. Funny thing is I was confident that I would do well on the multiple choice questions while I was taking the quiz, but not one answer was correct. Overall most of quiz was formulated luckily on the parts I did manage to cover, which goes to show you that variance would be on my side today. This is turn means +EV, which means heaters.

Not too bad of a way to start off the day…. but I knew I shoulda fucking slept in today.

While correcting the quiz, being the champ I am, I decided to open a couple tables of 50nl. I can at least say that it wouldn’t be the worst session I’ve had, but a whopping 2nd. I managed to donk 2bi without even blinking. 40 hands out of 120 into the session, I knew this was going to be a dark dark day for poker. I’d like to sit here telling you about how I raised utg with AA and had sb call 33 and check call all the way to river only to see the 3 hit on the river, but that would have been a valiant stack-off compared to my horrendous plays throughout the session. It’s not that I felt I was being bluffed/outplayed, nor was I getting sucked out on, but for some dumb fucking reason I just kept spewing money into pots that I should have never been involved with in the first place.

The frustration kept building throughout the session and it was not derived from any outside influences (other players, whole cards, suck-outs, etc.), but from my own actions and or lack of action mixed in with my overall poor play. I’m trying to figure out what makes me transform into this insane unstoppable aggro monkey. I could blame it on lack of sleep, hunger, luck, eurphoria from the big bucks quiz, maybe even because Jupiter was perfectly aligned with Uranus(somebody seriously check this out for me), but that would do no justice nor make me feel even the slightest bit better. If all the days leading up to this month was my A+ game, which I felt it was, I would rate today as…. standing in the hall cause I didn’t even write NO FU’IN test YO.

After calling it a quits, about the same time we were wrapping up on the last slides, I met a couple friends in the courtyard to find that they were going for a few afternoon beers. Not being a poker degen like I, I could not vent my anger and frustration on people who hardly understand the game. Inevitably, I decided to drown my sorrows away. Once we got to the small pub on campus we decided to grab seats at the bar, seeing that to our suprise most of the other tables were occupied which is weird given that it was a monday afternoon. I ask the Ralph (bartender, but I swear thats a cover name) for my usual Sapporo only to find that they’re out. There are some things in life that you just don’t do; poke an alligator with a stick, attempt to eat 2 full size McCain(dunno if its the first “C” that’s capitilized or the second) frozen pies in 2 minutes flat, call a girl fat/or say she looks fat in a specific outfit, and last but not least, DO NOT DEPRIVE A MAN ON A DOWNSWING HIS FAVOURITE BREW.

As I  grudgingly accepted the generic and stereotypical “I AM CANADIAN” pitcher, a fairly tall redhead girl with the most annoying sour-faced face look comes and asks me if I could buy her a drink. I am not impatient or am I usually a prick/perv, but I told I’m not having a good day, maybe some other time.  In the back of my head im thinking the price for the drink is going to have to be some sweaty, aggressive(nails, biting), angry(weapons allowed, with the exception of blades exceeding 4″), mind-blowing sex, a warm bed to sleep in, and a cup of fucking hot cocoa, WITH the different color marshmallows. This was my ultimatum, I was not in the mood nor the state of mind to try and subtley coax her into taking off her pants. She gave me a very odd look, both impressed mixed with some anger and dissapointment (she must have wanted the beer bad), and walked away without a single retort. What can I say? Misery loves company =[ .

Hey, this is neemz coming back atchu with a late-night/early morning blog. Not too much happened today, had a pretty damn good workout ( I can’t seem to elevate my arms unless its resting on something) and managed to get some reading for school finished….. and OF COURSE some solid pokerage. Put in a couple short sessions and ended up winning half a BI or so. I was doing so well too fuk, was up around 2 buy-ins at the halfway mark and a combo of spewwing/running bad I ended up being a small winner. I also re-read a novel for probably the 3rd time now since high school (wish I made this much headway in my readings for class). If you enjoy thriller/detective/homicidal serial killers check out “Nine” by Jan Burke. Although I haven’t read any other books by her it is by far the best fiction book I have read up to date. If you enjoyed the movie SNATCH, you’re going to blow your load reading this. The story line is original, characters are well developed, and just the overall story line and how all these seemingly unrelated characters end up intertwined at the end of the novel is just EPIC.

The things I lack, with emphasis on the three of the activities mentioned above and among others, is MOTIVATION and DISCIPLINE. I will work out for about 2 to 3 weeks/ 4-5 days a week and then abruptly stop. I’ll tell myself I’ll stay ontop and up to date with my readings/work for my classes, but I usually end up weeks behind. I’ll tell myself to stop spewing money at the tables, but inevitably I  will jam QQ on the river on a KJ38A board with 25bb left in a 150bb pot thinking I can get a fold, or possibly a thin value bet in (see below for HH). I’ll tell myself I’m going to talk to that cute girl in class, but I always pussy out. I don’t even wanna start to bore you with my talk about attempts to quit cigarettes/mary jane.

This is where this blog is going to be my savior =]. I plan to list up reasonable short-term and long-term goals in order to stay motivated, on track, with consistency. I also plan to use these entries to reflect on thoughts, actions, and decisions which I believe people do not do enough these days. Whether it be because of the whole hustle and bustle life style that we are accustomed to (rush rush rush, go go go, take take take), or other mitigating factors, we need to take some time out of the day to slow down, take a deep breath, step back, and reflect not only on ourselves but also our impact on others around us.

This may sound very cliche and or naive, but I believe we all have the capabilities to change whatever aspects of our lives we choose (with the obvious exceptions to shit like flying/growing 3 feet/ and winning the lottery on command). From losing weight, finding a new career, ending a horrible relationship or starting  a horrible one with that bombshell blond , it all begins with searching inwards, to you, yourself, for a means of change.

Short-term goals (end of the month):

1. Put in 10000 more hands, hopefully be rolled to take a shot at 100nl starting next month.

2. Stay up to date with readings on classes/start studying for next exam/begin outline for final paper.

3. Cut 5lbs of fat, add muscle and start chiseling away at my keg.

4. Start looking for an apartment/house to rent.

5. talk to that cute girl

Long-term goals (to 2010 and beyond):

1. Properly rolled for 100nl maybe 200nl (100BI) with the intention to play full-time while taking shots at higher stakes.

2. Pass my classes with flying colors.

3. Pay off car and move out.

4. Add PLO/STUD games to my repertoire.

5. Become one of those guys with so much muscle I can’t turn around to wipe my own ass (Bad Boys)

6. Have illhest blog on Ptrikz =]

There you have it, my list and the end to my useless ranting. I will leave you with a couple hands from todays session and my graph for this month.

Hand 1:

Seat 1: hero ($50)
Seat 2: JT623 ($11.05)
Seat 3: medium Kahuna ($43.90)
Seat 4: HAENDRIX ($54.40)
Seat 5: jenrn80 ($107.65)
Seat 6: HANCAL70S ($52.05)
medium Kahuna posts the small blind of $0.25
HAENDRIX posts the big blind of $0.50
The button is in seat #2
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to hero [Qh Qs]
jenrn80 folds
HANCAL70S folds
hero raises to $1.75
JT623 folds
medium Kahuna calls $1.50
HAENDRIX folds
*** FLOP *** [3s Js Kh]
medium Kahuna bets $4
hero raises to $12
medium Kahuna calls $8
*** TURN *** [3s Js Kh] [8h]
medium Kahuna has 15 seconds left to act
medium Kahuna checks
hero bets $16
medium Kahuna calls $16
*** RIVER *** [3s Js Kh 8h] [Ad]
medium Kahuna checks
hero bets $20.25, and is all in
medium Kahuna calls $14.15, and is all in
Uncalled bet of $6.10 returned to hero
*** SHOW DOWN ***
hero shows [Qh Qs] a pair of Queens
medium Kahuna shows [3c 3d] three of a kind, Threes
medium Kahuna wins the pot ($85.30) with three of a kind, Threes

Hand 2:

Seat 1: bbang081 ($14.25)
Seat 2: SetFazersToSuck ($67.20)
Seat 3: mochate818 ($73.30)
Seat 4: Rock_Ness_777 ($67.35)
Seat 5: ship heart ($50)
Seat 6: hero ($55.40)
ship heart posts the small blind of $0.25
hero posts the big blind of $0.50
The button is in seat #4
*** HOLE CARDS ***
Dealt to hero [6s 4s]
bbang081 folds
SetFazersToSuck folds
mochate818 folds
Rock_Ness_777 folds
ship heart raises to $2
hero raises to $6
ship heart calls $4
*** FLOP *** [5s 9s 2s]
ship heart checks
hero bets $8.50
ship heart raises to $44, and is all in
hero calls $35.50
ship heart shows [Js Qh]
hero shows [6s 4s]
*** TURN *** [5s 9s 2s] [8s]
*** RIVER *** [5s 9s 2s 8s] [3h]
ship heart shows a flush, Jack high
hero shows a flush, Nine high
ship heart wins the pot ($97) with a flush, Jack high

PS. I am looking for anyone who is down for a sweat session, leave a comment or send a PM. Whether it b people at higher stakes looking for a chuckle or two from my ridiculous plays or lower stakes players looking to improve their game, please let a brotha know.

Hey, hows it going people call me neemz. I’m 21 YO and am currently part-time student playing poker part-time as well. I’ve never had a blog so my bad if I go off into random tangents at certain times. But I guess that’s sorta what a blog is about.

I started playing poker seriously about 8 months ago grinding 25nl. Though I played leisurely for a couple years online I never really understood as I do now the +EV/-EV of playing poker for a living. After devouring the pokertrikz vidz free of charge (<3), and joining a few other poker sites, I decided that I wanted to try and throw the money down and let it ride (so to speak). The first few months into my mission I was coasting through steady, grinding my roll, and inevitably hit my first downswing. Although I don’t remeber for how many buy-ins it was, which was probably due to the fact that I finished about 2/3 of a 26oz of JD right afterwards, it was enough to make me sick to my stomach (no pun intended).

Over the next couple months I saddling back up and began to be a slightly winning player, around 4.0bb/100h which is decent I believe but not nearly as I would have liked to be winning. 1250$ was the mark when I foolishly jumped up to 50 nl. What more can I say, I got fuking destroyed. Leaving myself with less than half of the profit made over 5 months, frustrated as balls, I told myself I was going to quit.

Being the degen I am, I slowly got back into grinding again. I started opening up my range from button and late positions and playing less tables in order to improve my post-flop play. To my suprise this remedy seemed to be doing the trick. I found myself able to fold in marginal situations with confidence, felt like I getting more action with big hands due to wider opening ranges, and overall hand reaing abilities seem to have improved. My overall stats were 14/10/1.9 (VPP/PFR/AGG) up until a few months ago, and now I usually play around 21/19/3.5. It took about a month to grind my roll to 1500 when I decided to take shot at 50nl starting this month.

What can I say? I am a sexy bastard. I’ve put in about 15000 hands so far this month and am +800$ and ~180$ RB running about 10bb/100h. There’s been mad swings, mostly cooler situations with a hint of suck out to re-suck out to re-re-suck out but I guess that’s part of the game.

I think thats about it for today, starting to sober up and its getting bright outside. To all those who’ve made it to the end I reward you with this:

<<<<<<<<< http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYkWjsWoCzo >>>>>>>

it’s that audio heroin boys.